Transformational LA Experience: Part 1
Why I initially chose to attend this workshop: I heard many Herbalife (the company I am a part of) people going to it, I saw their success in business when they came back. Many people in the company that I valued as leaders went to it so that in itself was a major push for me to go. I noticed changes in people attending this. People that I looked up to and thought of as already very successful and developed were going, so it caught my attention.
A big reason was of course, business. I thought I would go to this and come back on fire in my business. I thought I would explode in the business. But there was a little something tugging at me also, like I knew there was a deeper reason for going. And much of that stemmed from my resistance. There was major resistance to go. I felt like I should be in Dallas working on my business, and working on opening my second business. I felt like it was not the right time to go, but I went anyway. Because of the resistance I felt, I knew it was exactly what I needed.
On my way to California and upon arriving, I realized that I really had no idea what was about to happen. I read on the website what it was about, but did I really know? Nope. Nothing. Nada. Yet here I was, ready for massive transformation.
Day 1: walking into a room full of strangers, a few I recognized from Herbalife. Music playing, people filling up the chairs. I sat in silence, observing the surroundings. Soon after the music stopped, a man on stage began speaking. “Welcome to your Basic training”. I had no idea my life would be completely transformed those next 5 days.
What happened that first day? I’m not even sure to be honest. Over the course of the next 5 days, I can’t exactly recall all of what happened. But it was fucking magical. Parts of the days we would sit together as a group, there were about 230 of us. The speaker would speak from stage, and as he was talking people would stand up and ask questions for coaching. The interesting part was that the trainer never told people what was going on with them or why they were facing the issues that they talked about. What he did do was ask questions, lots of questions. And by doing this, that person and everyone else was able to dig deeper within ourselves and our mind and find the core to everything. Why are we the way we are? Why do we have the same thought patterns and habits? Why does the same thing in life always tend to happen but just with different people and situations? It all started at a very young age, sometimes too young to remember. It all stems from our childhood and how our parents raised us and acted around us, whether good or bad.
The other part of the course consisted of group exercises. The intimate settings helped to dive deeper, especially for me because I am usually shy to speak up in big groups. The small groups consisted of us doing mirroring exercises and discovering how we view the world, past and present. And holy shit did it work! It was very awkward and uncomfortable at first, but the minute you drop into your heart, you get it. The work is deep, so deep. You dig and dig and when you find it, you can work through it and finally let it go.
At the end of the 5 days, I had never felt so free in my life. The work we did completely dropped the ego. I discovered so much about myself, my ways of being, and what was holding me back in life.
I learned to forgive, to let go. I learned how I am responsible for almost everything that happens in my life. I am source of all things. I discovered the true power I have to make shit happen. And the true power I have to let go. I forgave my parents for everything. And not only did I forgive, but I saw the story I created. I painted a picture of my parents being drug and alcohol addicts, and always fighting, and my dad beating my mother, and them not providing a safe environment for me to grow. I held so much against them. But going through the workshop, I saw how I never gave them respect for bringing me into the world, and raising me, and feeding and clothing me. And I never saw my parents as kids themselves. They were only 27 when they had me, what did they know? In their minds, they were doing the best they could. And they did. So why continue to hold on to so much hate and resentment when the past is in the past? I wasted 15 years of my life as an adult holding that against them. I gave up and shut down relationships, romantically and not, because I developed a mindset of “I’m independent and don’t need anyone, especially not a man”. I did not have a relationship with my parents. But now, I’m open, I’m free. I am reconnecting with my parents and it is beautiful, and I am open to letting love in. it hurts to think how much of my life I wasted because of my old thought pattern and habits.
I’m not sure if any of this is making any sense, but my hope is it does. I went into this workshop with a completely different mindset and expectation, and what I came out with was so much more. Most importantly, what I came out as, the new discovery of my true self, becoming more awakened, was and is worth everything in the world.
A Look Inside 